not as emo as emomutt.

[bebepanales]

but i do feel down. complicated long story whose details i shall spare you. end result: divorced my good husband today because i wanted to be with this guy i like / likes me. we liked each other before my husband and i married btw.

anyways... i did hurt a really good friend, not to mention the perfectest husband ever. we did marry as friends, but i did hurt him a lot today. he was disappointed. i had no idea it would eat me up this badly... friend or someone i like?? came down to a tug of war where i had the power to choose who to hurt and who to spare. this happened because the guy i liked kept insisting on trying for divorce. god... are friends more important than someone special to you?? im beginning to think so. i feel so guilty i dont even really want to be with the guy i like right now. i mean the point of the divorce was so that i could marry this guy but... i am just feeling really ****tty right now. my husband didn't even do anything wrong~ he was nothing but really really good to me.

i just want to hide from everyone now. i mailed him back the coy he gave me. he got angry at that. but how can i keep it... really..?? i quit my guild. i can't stand facing him every day. i cant lift my head in front of him any more. i feel like SCUMBAGGY.

@ kitaek and others: not fishing for sympathy. just a vent mkay...

[hengsheng120]

I hope this is in real life.

[Moppy]

I hope this is in real life.

I hope this is Mabi.

[Nakishu]

I hope this is Mabi.

I hope either one of you guys are right.

[yugun313]

owo;;;
love is never easy x3 ~ and it takes the greastest bravery in the world to stick with what u believe and love ;3.
May ur decision be a wise and correst one. :tea:

[yugun313]

oh, dont avoid him. u'll regret it owo.
find a time. chat it out. dont hold it in till it become on your list of "things i should have done, sigh."

[Episkey]

Oh... this is Mabinogi.....

Well, I hope you feel better?
:fail:

Anyway, I'm sure over time you'll feel better about the situation.
I mean you can't expect to quickly marry someone right after a divorce.
It's the same with most people in real-life.

[Coy]

friends are there for you longer y'know.

considering he was trying to convince you to do it just makes him sound like a selfish douche, but that's just me ¯\(º__o)/¯

[Cannibal]

Why'd you mail Coy? SHE'LL DIE IN THE MAILBOX OMG NO. QQ
LIVE, COY, LIVE.


Anyway, I know it sounds bad, but Mabilations don't usually work out anyway.

[Phunkie]

Accept that you made a mistake. Before anyone can forgive you, you must forgive yourself.

Hope you can do that and I also hope that things workout. You seem like a great person.

[bebepanales]

oh thanks~ you guys are the best. mm i will just need some time by myself for a while though. isn't this funny~ all this over a game x3

[Hiccup]

At least explain to your ex-hubby what went down so he knows. Even if it hurts telling him the truth would be better for both of you in the long run.

[Bankai231]

At first I thought this was Real life and was like "Bebe is this old?!?!"

But I understand where your at. Cant really be with someone who you dont like. And if it was just a friend relationship it will proabably just blow over.
Hope for the best~

[bebepanales]

well... im beginning to think i did love him as a friend a lot~ i wasnt attracted to him as a guy likes a girl i dont think~ that is why i didnt expect to feel this horrible. oh well~ what's done is done. i hope he forgives me.

[Yogurticecream]

He can be disappointed, but if he really cares for you as a friend he has to accept that your happiness matters a lot more. So don't feel sorry about your decision.

Have a good talk with him and befriend each other again. It'll work out somehow.

[hengsheng120]

well... im beginning to think i did love him as a friend a lot~ i wasnt attracted to him as a guy likes a girl i dont think~ that is why i didnt expect to feel this horrible. oh well~ what's done is done. i hope he forgives me.

Do you know what he looks like in real life? Have you ever talked to him via voice/webcam?

Anyways, you shouldn't too emotionally involved in an online relationship (even as a friend) unless you know him really well IMO, at least don't let it affect how you feel in real life. It's kinda dangerous if it's uncontrolled.

[bebepanales]

Do you know what he looks like in real life? Have you ever talked to him via voice/webcam?
i know what he looks like but i havent vid chatted with him. why??

[hengsheng120]

well, i was wondering if you asked him personally, if he thinks it's not a big deal, then he should be ok.

[bebepanales]

im totally avoiding people right now. xD ninja offline mode :3
umm i did ask him a little after the divorce if he was ok and he said yeah, and if we were still friends, and he said yeah. but i kind of think he doesn't want to have anything to do with me just now, which is to be expected.