R.I.P.

[Cynic]

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My Mom was rocking him in her arms, when he suddenly started struggling to get out of her arms and trying to jump down. She brought him to me and he stumbled, falling over on his sides until he finally jumped down on the side of my bed, under the blanket. When I went to look and coax him into coming back up, I saw him laying on his side, looking up at me. A few seconds later he stopped breathing as I pet him.

I love you Kurt. I wish I had known sooner so I could have done something. I'm so sorry.

[Mrlucky77]

Sad, and I was reading that "ER" thread earlier today.

I was hoping things were going to work out.

[Hiccup]

:cry:

*hugs*

[Loopster]

Awww, that sucks. I just hope my dog is okay and wish you the best of luck. :T_T:

[Skye]

I'm sorry. I truly am. Losing a pet is very difficult.

[Lolicon]

Thats just damn depressing.

[Cynic]

/hugs you all.

I pretty much bawled twice (one as I pet him) and this morning when I punched my dresser. Which, by the way, I would not advise ever doing. It doesn't help much.
But I'm glad I could at-least be with him.. he laid with me the entire time yesterday, mostly on my hand. He couldn't even eat anymore, let alone sleep. His breathing problems were worsened due to that f*cking tapeworm so all he could do was sit with lidded eyes and suffer. I wish we had the money to take him to the vet to give him a peaceful end and lessen his suffering but iunno. It's my fault for not noticing his symptoms sooner and just assuming it was allergies initially. So yeah.

We're going to bury him today; the landlord's are letting us bury him wherever we want. We're burying him with their little hut, since he loved sitting on it while he started getting sick. I still want to beat the living sh*t out of god/whoever for taking him away from me and making him suffer so much, but I'm just glad he's at peace now. And that he chose me to be his owner.

[TA]

Which one is he in the pic?

[Conor]

My condolences. :(

[starpaw7]

/hugs you all.

I pretty much bawled twice (one as I pet him) and this morning when I punched my dresser. Which, by the way, I would not advise ever doing. It doesn't help much.
But I'm glad I could at-least be with him.. he laid with me the entire time yesterday, mostly on my hand. He couldn't even eat anymore, let alone sleep. His breathing problems were worsened due to that f*cking tapeworm so all he could do was sit with lidded eyes and suffer. I wish we had the money to take him to the vet to give him a peaceful end and lessen his suffering but iunno. It's my fault for not noticing his symptoms sooner and just assuming it was allergies initially. So yeah.

We're going to bury him today; the landlord's are letting us bury him wherever we want. We're burying him with their little hut, since he loved sitting on it while he started getting sick. I still want to beat the living sh*t out of god/whoever for taking him away from me and making him suffer so much, but I'm just glad he's at peace now. And that he chose me to be his owner.


It is not your fault!
From their symptoms the first thing to come up wouldn't be a fatal disease; don't blame yourself, not matter how sad it is ):

An unknown affliction came on to my pet (that now sounds a lot like a tapeworm) which they had been acting strange for months before then, but I assumed they just had a fur problem and it would grow back eventually.
And it did, and I had hope

He died 13 minutes after I came home, in my hands, staring at me until they saw nothing.
I'm glad I was there, I just wonder to god how it would have been if I came just a little bit later.
I would have felt like garbage.

I'm very glad you were there for them, and that they knew it.

Rest in peace, little Kurt - this goes out to you; you're awesome for making Cynic happy http://www.freesmileys.org/emoticons/tuzki-bunnys/tuzki-bunny-emoticon-019.gif

[Cynic]

He's the little one with the phantom of the opera mask thing going on. He used to love sleeping on his Uncles/Grandpa. He was always a very touchy Rat; loved personal closeness.

@ Conor; thank you.

@ Star; Hah, I know.. but I'm the type who always does this. It's a horrid habit, but I can't seem to bring myself to kick it. For if it isn't my fault, who's is it?
I could always blame God/whoever for taking him away and making him suffer, but since he himself was so innocent there had to some reason for it. There isn't anyone deserving of that, besides me.

And I mean that in the most non-emo or self pitying way possible.

[Skye]

You know, at least you had time to try to do something for him, even though you couldn't get the money for it. At least you had an idea of what was wrong.

I had a puppy a little over a year ago, her name was Leisl (like weasel, but the s sounds like an s, not a z). She just got crazy lazy one afternoon. She just sat around, and wouldn't move except to wag her tail (which she always did anyway) and follow us with her eyes. That night she threw up on the rug, and my mom took her outside in case she was going to throw up again. Leisl took a few steps out into the grass, then just plopped down. We called her to come back in, but she wouldn't move. My mom said maybe the cool grass felt good on her skin, since she was obviously sick.

So we left her out there overnight.

The next morning my mom came in my room at 6 something and said Leisl was dead.

This happened over a year ago, and I'm crying just typing it all out.

But yeah, at least you had some time, and you could be with him in his final moments.

[Hanna]

You know, at least you had time to try to do something for him, even though you couldn't get the money for it. At least you had an idea of what was wrong.

I had a puppy a little over a year ago, her name was Leisl (like weasel, but the s sounds like an s, not a z). She just got crazy lazy one afternoon. She just sat around, and wouldn't move except to wag her tail (which she always did anyway) and follow us with her eyes. That night she threw up on the rug, and my mom took her outside in case she was going to throw up again. Leisl took a few steps out into the grass, then just plopped down. We called her to come back in, but she wouldn't move. My mom said maybe the cool grass felt good on her skin, since she was obviously sick.

So we left her out there overnight.

The next morning my mom came in my room at 6 something and said Leisl was dead.

This happened over a year ago, and I'm crying just typing it all out.

But yeah, at least you had some time, and you could be with him in his final moments.
did she have her parvo shot?

I've lost a dog to parvo before
I had a dog named Nook and he was a hyper little puppy, but one day when I was running late for school I was walking outside and instead of him running up and jumping on me like usual (which I normally hated because he'd get my jeans dirty)
he just lied on the porch acting lazy

I walked over to him and pet him and he started thumping his tail and looking up at me without lifting his head and watched me as I left without moving
I told my mom he was sick and needed to go to the vet, but she said he was just lazy or maybe has a stomach ache, and he'll be fine.

He wouldn't drink or eat, and I would have to pick him up and clean him up so he wasn't lying in his own wastes
I took him to the vet and they said they could start him on an IV but that would cost hundreds of dollars we didn't have

the vet gave us the best way to treat him at home and we tried

he died in my bed lying next to me as I pet him.

When I got my other two puppies I made sure one of the first things I did was get them a parvo shot

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I lost Jazz recently so I know your pain August, just remember on how happy she made you and how at least she's not in pain or uncomfortable anymore.

[Cynic]

Aye, I know he's in a better place now. But I can't help but miss him and selfishly wish he was still here-- not with his damn tapeworm, of course, but you know what I mean.

He was really special to me because he was the Grandson of my first Rat. We had to give away our female babies as-well as their Mama because we couldn't afford to keep them; the place we lived in at the time allowed no pets, so it was risky enough having our cats + the boy rats. It killed us, but we had to do it. When we went to get Kurt, we found out a few days later that he was the Son of my Mom's favorite baby rat, Freddy. When we gave our girls away a nice family adopted Freddy and her Sister, though because they also had a boy she got pregnant on accident. (The same thing happened with us, hence why the babies were born in the first place) So it turned out that we had happened to adopt one of the small litter that Freddy had.

Since it was the Son of one of my Grandkids and the Son of my Mom's favorite Great Grandkid, we felt really blessed to have him.

I had hoped that Kurt might have kids someday to keep the line going, but I guess that won't happen now. I'm just thankful for the time I've had with him.

[Hanna]

Aye, I know he's in a better place now. But I can't help but miss him and selfishly wish he was still here-- not with his damn tapeworm, of course, but you know what I mean.

He was really special to me because he was the Grandson of my first Rat. We had to give away our female babies as-well as their Mama because we couldn't afford to keep them; the place we lived in at the time allowed no pets, so it was risky enough having our cats + the boy rats. It killed us, but we had to do it. When we went to get Kurt, we found out a few days later that he was the Son of my Mom's favorite baby rat, Freddy. When we gave our girls away a nice family adopted Freddy and her Sister, though because they also had a boy she got pregnant on accident. (The same thing happened with us, hence why the babies were born in the first place) So it turned out that we had happened to adopt one of the small litter that Freddy had.

Since it was the Son of one of my Grandkids and the Son of my Mom's favorite Great Grandkid, we felt really blessed to have him.

I had hoped that Kurt might have kids someday to keep the line going, but I guess that won't happen now. I'm just thankful for the time I've had with him.

That's a good way of looking at it <3

[Skye]

@Hanna

did she have her parvo shot?

I've lost a dog to parvo before
I had a dog named Nook and he was a hyper little puppy, but one day when I was running late for school I was walking outside and instead of him running up and jumping on me like usual (which I normally hated because he'd get my jeans dirty)
he just lied on the porch acting lazy

I walked over to him and pet him and he started thumping his tail and looking up at me without lifting his head and watched me as I left without moving
I told my mom he was sick and needed to go to the vet, but she said he was just lazy or maybe has a stomach ache, and he'll be fine.

He wouldn't drink or eat, and I would have to pick him up and clean him up so he wasn't lying in his own wastes
I took him to the vet and they said they could start him on an IV but that would cost hundreds of dollars we didn't have

the vet gave us the best way to treat him at home and we tried

he died in my bed lying next to me as I pet him.

When I got my other two puppies I made sure one of the first things I did was get them a parvo shot

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I lost Jazz recently so I know your pain August, just remember on how happy she made you and how at least she's not in pain or uncomfortable anymore.

I don't know if she did or not, but my mom watched an episode of some show about dogs about a month after Leisl died. Parvo was mentioned in it, and the symptoms seemed spot on, so we assumed that's what caused her death.
We didn't even have time to take her to the vet though, that was the worst part. That and she died outside in the cold (it was within the first few months of the year, so the nights were kind of chilly).
I kept asking my mom if she thought Leisl died at least knowing we loved her.

Coincidentally, I was supposed to go over to my then boyfriend's house that day, and when he came to pick me up, I told him about Leisl (I don't think he liked her, because she was "more important" than he was, according to him). When we got to his house, we walked in and his mom was there in the room. He just blurted out Emily's dog died today. Like he was telling the ****ing weather forecast. That pissed me off.
Then I cried later and he just sat there and said Don't cry, I don't know what to do.

>_>



Aye, I know he's in a better place now. But I can't help but miss him and selfishly wish he was still here-- not with his damn tapeworm, of course, but you know what I mean.

He was really special to me because he was the Grandson of my first Rat. We had to give away our female babies as-well as their Mama because we couldn't afford to keep them; the place we lived in at the time allowed no pets, so it was risky enough having our cats + the boy rats. It killed us, but we had to do it. When we went to get Kurt, we found out a few days later that he was the Son of my Mom's favorite baby rat, Freddy. When we gave our girls away a nice family adopted Freddy and her Sister, though because they also had a boy she got pregnant on accident. (The same thing happened with us, hence why the babies were born in the first place) So it turned out that we had happened to adopt one of the small litter that Freddy had.

Since it was the Son of one of my Grandkids and the Son of my Mom's favorite Great Grandkid, we felt really blessed to have him.

I had hoped that Kurt might have kids someday to keep the line going, but I guess that won't happen now. I'm just thankful for the time I've had with him.

Ah, I think I remember you saying before that that coincidence had happened. Or maybe I'm just crazy.
But remembering the good times will help you get through it. And you've always got your mom, and us if you need~

[Thorne]

That's horrid...I'm sorry for your loss ._. our ginuea pig died a simular fate, only he had a really strange growth on his head, and we really couldn't do anything about it. He ended up having a seizure which caused his death. I felt like garbage for letting him suffer, but I couldn't do anything else for him.


So yeah, I know how it feels, you were a good owner to him, and he was a good pet for you. I hope you'll feel better soon. :c

[Cynic]

@ Skye; we thought so at first, yar. We had no idea when we had bought him that he was Freddy's child-- I don't really ask, I let the Rat choose me, not the other way around. But since he did the exact same thing Seychelle's, his Grandma did when I got her.. we sort of knew, in a weird subconscious way.
(When I opened the box to check on her on the way back from the petstore, she climbed out and sat on my shoulder without my even trying to do anything. Kurt did the EXACT same thing.)

I don't know what higher power planned such a thing, but they have some twisted humor considering how it ended.

@ Mor; thank you. <3

[Ithiliel]

Oh...=( I'm so sorry August.*hugs*Just remember that Kurt was very loved and very happy with your family.

[Claudia]

I'm just going to leave a hug here.

Nothing else, just a hug.

/hug
/hug
/hug

[starpaw7]

^ And to all of the above responses


@ Star; Hah, I know.. but I'm the type who always does this. It's a horrid habit, but I can't seem to bring myself to kick it. For if it isn't my fault, who's is it?
I could always blame God/whoever for taking him away and making him suffer, but since he himself was so innocent there had to some reason for it. There isn't anyone deserving of that, besides me.

At first I cried more to feel better, then I think about how much less pain they feel.

http://cdn1.knowyourmeme.com/i/000/107/432/original/i_hug_that_feel.png?1300595876

Right now, I feel sadness for a cat left in America - because?
She wasn't dead, I will never know when or how she died, I will - unless by some miracle - never be there if she does dies within the next few years

I can never know how she feels, how she is being treated; she has no idea what happened to me, and why I am suddenly gone from her - I hope beyond hope that she is not alone.

What is worse is that I had to force her in a cage, and the last moment I saw of her was crying to get out of the container not big enough for her to stand in her full height

I hope my sister's friend will take care of them.

[Zid]

Take heart in the fact you were there for him when he passed on, and that he's at least not suffering anymore. And then the memories.

I don't have a pet at the moment, but my tenant manager has a cat he's very attached with and been with for a long time (6 years, I think), and the cat's really ill (Hasn't been eating much lately, from what he told me).

He knows his friend is about to die sooner or later.

[Cynic]

@ Star;

That's how I felt with my girls when we had to give them to the pet store. I wasn't even there to help raise them for the last month that I saw them thanks to my dumb b*tch of an Aunt. We would have kept them even if it strained out wallet; we rather feed our animals then ourselves sometimes. (though we always have healthy food around) I'm sorry. </3

@ Zid; thank you very much. It means a lot for Kurt's sake.
I'm sure he'd have been a happy little Rat knowing so many people offered their support.