Motivation/Identity Question?

• Haydrian wrote on 2010-04-23 00:21
  Hum, these past 2+ months I've had almost no drive to play Mabinogi, and not because i'm tired of it. My reasoning is so stupid it hurts really from an observer's view, but sadly it's sucked the drive to play from me. It's all about IGN.
  
  
  Here's the basic story:
  About 2 years ago I broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years and I was right pissed off about how it ended. I'm calm now and have moved on but the reason i mention this is that that's my reason for my disdain with my IGN.
  
  A couple days after the break up I ditched my again current gamertag and made a new one since there wasn't much on my main one anyway. I created "Hatecraze" and did nothing but play Gears of War and Halo 3 all day until my frustration was dulled for the day and i'd go do some really stupid crap that's best left to one's imagination.
  
  A couple months later my friend's little sister that I adopted as my gaming "sister" got me to play Mabinogi with her. I didn't care about it i just wanted a distraction and i made Hatecraze. I ended up ditching hate for a year+ though since she wanted to to play a girl so people would stop thinking I was her boyfriend. Well anyway the rest is just dumb and eventually i went back to Hate because i was sick of being hit on by random dudes just to appease my "sister". A year has now past and now I'm here brooding like a vampire.
  
  
  Anyway, the dilemma is whether or not to restart.
  I can't play alts, I've tried to but it's just not my thing. I need 1 sole character and that's it. I've heard rumors on CH3 Tarlach (my home) of name/server change cards soon to arrive (estimation May). While this is an urban legend at this point, it's been what's kept me playing for the past few months. It's been going fine but I'm at my limit, I honestly can't stand looking at my character or anything to do with "Hatecraze" without wanting to punch a wall. Seriously that's how bad that break up was, and playing mabi is my anti-alcohol. So with that, I want some thoughts of what i should do. I'm VERY well aware of how rather stupid all of this is. If i didn't like this game so blasted much i wouldn't care but sadly i can't just randomly ditch it like I can basically everything else.
  
  
  So what do you guys think?
  
  -Keep playing as "Hatecraze" and continue to fantasize over something that may never come
  
  -Restart and lose 1000 odd levels and 8 rank 1 skills
  
  
  
  Feel free to call me stupid, I do every time i look at that Celtic knot now. >.<
• Cannibal wrote on 2010-04-23 00:24
  Continue with your hard work, please.
• Chiri wrote on 2010-04-23 00:24
  ... Maybe you should try a race change, so abandoning Hate doesn't feel as pointless.
  
  edit: I'm very very very doubtful that server or name change tickets will ever come out.
• Haydrian wrote on 2010-04-23 00:30

  Quote from Chiri;15713:

  ... Maybe you should try a race change, so abandoning Hate doesn't feel as pointless.
  
  edit: I'm very very very doubtful that server or name change tickets will ever come out.

  
  
  As am I about the cards.
  
  I've thought about going elf but they're difficult to start off melee I hear. Sadly humans are definitely my major pick due to the diversity. I'd feel obligated to do nothing but windmill and refine off the bat with a restart of course and neither are a pretty sight for elves to rank (refine not *as* bad from the get go). Hard to say.
• Chockeh wrote on 2010-04-23 00:32
  ...Honestly, did I hit on you once? owo...
• Haydrian wrote on 2010-04-23 00:35

  Quote from Chocklitshop;15735:

  ...Honestly, did I hit on you once? owo...

  
  
  Sacrifice was it? Nah, i never run into any members of your guild it seems.
  
  Actually it's funny because i was married twice for the sheer lulz. Once with my good mate to ward off women and the other is more humorous but i think i'll keep it secret. :P
• Chockeh wrote on 2010-04-23 00:37

  Quote from Rysterz;15742:

  Sacrifice was it? Nah, i never run into any members of your guild it seems.
  
  Actually it's funny because i was married twice for the sheer lulz. Once with my good mate to ward off women and the other is more humorous but i think i'll keep it secret. :P

  I mean with a elf named Zasakii, Agitators guild maybe? btw is there a nation guild for Tarlach?
• Cannibal wrote on 2010-04-23 00:39
  No nation guild for Tarlach.
• Chockeh wrote on 2010-04-23 00:41

  Quote from Chiri;15713:

  ... Maybe you should try a race change, so abandoning Hate doesn't feel as pointless.
  
  edit: I'm very very very doubtful that server or name change tickets will ever come out.

  
  Well it did for MS, who knows...
• Haydrian wrote on 2010-04-23 00:44

  Quote from Chocklitshop;15749:

  I mean with a elf named Zasakii, Agitators guild maybe? btw is there a nation guild for Tarlach?

  
  
  Agitators? Too new for when i played a chick. This is back pre iria.
  
  
  I was actually curious myself about official nation guilds if there will be any. I'm helping a friend collect GP for his atm, but I'd probably join/help make an official one for the nation's tarlach players if prompted.
  
  
  

  Quote from Chocklitshop;15759:

  Well it did for MS, who knows...

  
  
  This. The reason even a shred of hope lives in me for them. Well and suspicious screens that Cao showed me showing weird cards that could be them.
• Chockeh wrote on 2010-04-23 00:49

  Quote from Rysterz;15766:

  Agitators? Too new for when i played a chick. This is back pre iria.
  
  
  I was actually curious myself about official nation guilds if there will be any. I'm helping a friend collect GP for his atm, but I'd probably join/help make an official one for the nation's tarlach players if prompted.
  
  
  
  
  This. The reason even a shred of hope lives in me for them. Well and suspicious screens that Cao showed me showing weird cards that could be them.

  I'd totally join but...I doubt that anyone is motivated enough for a full fledged long lasting guild...
• Haydrian wrote on 2010-04-23 00:53

  Quote from Chocklitshop;15778:

  I'd totally join but...I doubt that anyone is motivated enough for a full fledged long lasting guild...

  
  
  Honestly if I didn't have this hanging over my head i'd be game to keep one alive. I kinda miss feeling part of a community ever since my old RP group disbanded into separate places. I actually own a guild on my alt and few friends are in that i'd totally assimilate into an official nation guild. Now if i can just get over my stupid mabi mid-life crisis... (i'm too young! supposed to have that when i'm 40 not in my 20s!).
• Chockeh wrote on 2010-04-23 00:55

  Quote from Rysterz;15788:

  Honestly if I didn't have this hanging over my head i'd be game to keep one alive. I kinda miss feeling part of a community ever since my old RP group disbanded into separate places. I actually own a guild on my alt and few friends are in that i'd totally assimilate into an official nation guild. Now if i can just get over my stupid mabi mid-life crisis... (i'm too young! supposed to have that when i'm 40 not in my 20s!).

  
  Well it's always worth a try, but Tarlach member's here is a minority~~.
• Shirayuki wrote on 2010-04-23 00:56
  Maybe you can get more into group play, or restart on a new character like I did. I dropped a decent character for a brand new elf, and the game is probably just as fun as back in beta. I guess you can try to set new goals too. Even when I get bored of my newer character, I set a new goal. Usually they're small, but I renew them often. I really hope you find a reason to play Mabi more though D: I don't know you too well, but you always seemed like a nice guy :D
• Taycat wrote on 2010-04-23 00:57
  Keep the good character.
  
  **** everything else.