Awake.

• Navy wrote on 2010-12-17 22:09
  As I lie here awake
  I paint pictures on the ceiling from my thoughts.
  Thinking about what destination this road will take me to.
  Not knowing whether to follow with ease or to turn back the way I came.
  Growing tired with each step I take, wondering if going this far was even worth it.
  Hearing voices telling me to take only one step at a time, don't rush things.
  I'm drowning in my thoughts.
  I wonder if fate exists.
  Am I not in control of my future?
  Am I being watched by an all powerful being, that I have shunned for so long?
  Or is paranoia getting the best of me?
  Maybe this single narrow road will bring me to another option.
  Another way to live.
  I'll keep walking, no matter how much it hurts.
  And I won't look back
  I wont take other's advice, but only my own.
  If I fall asleep, my thoughts will haunt me.
  So I'll just lie here, awake.
  
  ------
  
  I've been having the same nightmare for the past 2 weeks about every time I fall asleep.
  So I wrote my thoughts down and made them into a dramatic monologue.
  Tell me what you think.
• Skye wrote on 2010-12-17 22:28
  Dramatic.
  
  I like it.
• Navy wrote on 2010-12-17 22:41

  Quote from Skye;251148:

  Dramatic.
  
  I like it.

  
  
  Probably doesnt make much sense though.
  It was 4 am and I've barley slept at all in 3 days.
• Phunkie wrote on 2010-12-17 22:58
  I like it!
  
  I love poems or stories that end with the first idea or sentence that they started with. It's a good conclusion and it's interesting to read.
  
  Hope you got some sleep after tho.
• Navy wrote on 2010-12-18 06:27

  Quote from Phunkie;251177:

  I like it!
  
  I love poems or stories that end with the first idea or sentence that they started with. It's a good conclusion and it's interesting to read.
  
  Hope you got some sleep after tho.

  
  
  Really? ):
  Because this is the first time I have ever shown my writing to anyone unless it was an assignment. :/
• Phunkie wrote on 2010-12-18 09:30
  Yes, I really like it. haha
  
  You should show us more!
• Navy wrote on 2010-12-18 20:05

  Quote from Phunkie;251911:

  Yes, I really like it. haha
  
  You should show us more!

  
  
  Most of my writing shows the weaker side of me, the side I don't show to most people.
  That's the reason I hide it other than I think my writing skills fail majorly.
  But I will, most people who post in the media center post artwork, so I think this is the wrong section so I'll post in bean rua from now on. :/
• Navy wrote on 2011-03-19 03:50

  Quote from Naked;252290:

  Most of my writing shows the weaker side of me, the side I don't show to most people.
  That's the reason I hide it other than I think my writing skills fail majorly.
  But I will, most people who post in the media center post artwork, so I think this is the wrong section so I'll post in bean rua from now on. :/

  
  
  also, I wrote this back in December and who knows how many pages back that is
  so I'll post it in here
  
  --
  As I lie here awake
  I paint pictures on the ceiling from my thoughts.
  Thinking about what destination this road will take me to.
  Not knowing whether to follow with ease or to turn back the way I came.
  Growing tired with each step I take, wondering if going this far was even worth it.
  Hearing voices telling me to take only one step at a time, don't rush things.
  I'm drowning in my thoughts.
  I wonder if fate exists.
  Am I not in control of my future?
  Am I being watched by an all powerful being, that I have shunned for so long?
  Or is paranoia getting the best of me?
  Maybe this single narrow road will bring me to another option.
  Another way to live.
  I'll keep walking, no matter how much it hurts.
  And I won't look back
  I wont take other's advice, but only my own.
  If I fall asleep, my thoughts will haunt me.
  So I'll just lie here, awake.
  --
  
  ^I was up for days at a time, couldn't sleep, could barely eat, and was horribly depressed.