Quote from Tatsu;377735:
Surely, they're all postable, regardless of their quality. Unless it's strangely over-explicit, but you can make a personal pastebin to host it on if it's riddled with censors.
Whether or not you think it's postable is your self-esteem and conscience. Personally, I think it's better to blindly post away just for it to be seen.
well I was going through my journals and found two that caught my eye because both were two unique experiences
My aunt taught me that whenever something bad would happen that I didn't want to see
I should close my eyes and count until I am able to realize the situation and keep myself calm
the first one is 51
I was in an abusive relationship (NOT THE ONE I'M IN NOW)
and I was afraid of him hurting my family, so I would lie to them to keep their noses out of it.
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51
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1..2..3
Just keep counting
4..5..6
Keep your eyes closed
7..8..9
It will be over soon enough
10..11..12
It never takes this long
13..14..15
He's leaving
16..17..18
My eyes are swollen
19..20..21
I can't open them
22..23..24
Ouch, that stings
25..26..27
Here, I'll try to stand up
28..29..30
I'm too dizzy, I'll fall
31..32..33
Mom, is that you?
34..35..36
No, I'm fine.
37..38..39
It's nothing, I fell.
40..41..42
Ice please, thank you.
43..44..45
"Hanna you're such a cluts"
46..47..48
I lied
49..50..51
Again.
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and then this one I wrote in April when I was in a car accident and I shattered my knee and broke my ankle, dislocated my shoulder and fractured my wrist.
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a concusion
and a lot of cuts and bruises a long the way
It's called 107 and it's continued from my other entry and I wrote it with my left hand in the hospital a few days after my accident on a napkin
so it was very messy and almost unreadable.
My car had flipped at around 10pm when a drunk driver hit me
and I wasn't able to think right when I crashed
and the last thing I remember that night is seeing him in handcuffs without a scratch on him
and falling asleep in the ambulance
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107
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52..53..54
I hear sirens
55..56..57
I can't feel my legs
58..59..60
Oh my god, my head
61..62..63
Everything is so loud, so bright
64..65..66
I understand you're concerned officer but your yelling is just making it worse
67..68..69
Am I upside down?
70..71..72
I feel sick
73..74..75
I smell gas..
76..77..78
Careful, my leg hurts.
79..80..81
Get it together Hanna
82..83..84
Stop screaming
85..86..87
Stop crying
88..89..90
What are you putting on me?
91..92..93
Let go of me
94..95..96
My arm feels like a noodle
97..98..99
Just let me take a nap until we get there
100..101..102
The sirens are too loud
103..104..105
I'm so tired..
106..107..108
I'm just going to sleep