Injecting heroin

• Spike wrote on 2011-07-14 18:19
  Buddy of mine described what injecting heroin feels like
  
  

  Describing the feeling of injecting? Well it’s hard to explain it to someone who’s never had the experience, but I’ll do my best. It starts way before you ever even touch the drug. Sometimes, half the fun is just finding it. You end up in these gritty sh*thole neighborhoods, wondering if you’ll get ripped off, or maybe just stabbed and robbed. You finally get your hands on some, and you’re just itching to do some right there in the street, but you manage to stuff away in your pocket and walk away. And then comes the ritual. Sh*t, I love the ritual almost as much as I love the high. It’s a classic. You’ve got your spoon, or your bottle cap, or whatever it is your using to cook it up, and you mix the H and the water, and start heating it up, and you’ll probably burn your fingers a little but you’re shivering with so much anticipation that you don’t even care. It starts bubbling and mixing together and it’s almost ready and you just can’t wait, but you have to because you don’t want to waste any of it, and you tear the filter off a cigarette and let it soak everything up and you slide the needle in and suck it all up. You tie off your arm, and your heart is pounding with anticipation and you find a vein and tap the needle and make sure there’s no air bubbles in there and you slowly slide it in. Like familiar lovers f*cking for the millionth time, it slides in and it fits perfectly and it just f*cking belongs there. You prime the plunger and see the plume of blood enter the syringe and then you slowly press the plunger down and you feel this warmth snaking into your arm, and you undo the tie off and you can feel it flowing up your arm and rushing out to fill you up everywhere. Your stomach turns all liquidy and warm and it feels like your insides might just run out of you and spill all over the floor. it comes on fast and hard and as it all sinks in it slows everything down until you’re caught like a fly in a spider’s web. And then for as long as it lasts, everything is beautiful and nothing hurts. It’s a very interesting sense of detachment, you’re just above everything and nothing can touch you. You feel like god. Nothing will ever live up to your memory of your first time, but that’s true of most things, like your first love, or your first orgasm. But every now and again, you’ll get a little taste of what it was like that first time, and that makes it all worthwhile.

• Cynic wrote on 2011-07-14 18:29
  Ah, that reminds me how I felt about my 'drug' of choice.
  Good stuff.
• Navy wrote on 2011-07-14 18:31
  Heroin is a horrible drug kids.
• Spike wrote on 2011-07-14 18:32

  Quote from Cynic;512283:

  Ah, that reminds me how I felt about my 'drug' of choice.
  Good stuff.

  And what's your 'drug' of choice?
• Cynic wrote on 2011-07-14 18:40
  Spoiler'd for the sake of potentially unwanted criticism.
  
  [SPOILER="Spoiler"]Self-harm.[/SPOILER]
  
  While that and actual drugs are very different, I know the exact feelings he's talking about. The rush of it and how giddy it makes you especially.
• Phunkie wrote on 2011-07-14 20:01
  Amazing description. Made my skin tingle (since I'm a little hesitant when it comes to needles).
  
  Would never do heroin though.
• Kollin wrote on 2011-07-14 21:36

  Quote from Spike;512275:

  Buddy of mine described what injecting heroin feels like

  
  
  your buddy absolutely disgusts me. this probably sounds hypocritcal, as i also have my drug of choice. the numb feeling i get i like, would i describe as the best thing to ever exist? no. i would recommend no one to do it, or any drug for that matter. i am slowly trying to work my way off of mine (not going all that great though), nor would i describe how to do it or tell them its an awsome thing to do. drugies (myself included) are weak, as they need to rely on that substance. this also includes alcoholics. the only difference is mine are perscribed, i am legally allowed to have them, i just take more than i should for that affect. its absolutely pathetic and i am ashamed of myself for doing it.
• Cynic wrote on 2011-07-14 22:04

  Quote from Kollin;512478:

  your buddy absolutely disgusts me. this probably sounds hypocritcal, as i also have my drug of choice. the numb feeling i get i like, would i describe as the best thing to ever exist? no. i would recommend no one to do it, or any drug for that matter. i am slowly trying to work my way off of mine (not going all that great though), nor would i describe how to do it or tell them its an awsome thing to do. drugies (myself included) are weak, as they need to rely on that substance. this also includes alcoholics. the only difference is mine are perscribed, i am legally allowed to have them, i just take more than i should for that affect. its absolutely pathetic and i am ashamed of myself for doing it.

  
  
  Any substance abuse is of course bad, even if someone has a legit reason for doing so. I have more than enough legit reasons yet I still felt ashamed that I couldn't find any other alternative to distract me.
  Now, realizing the fact that it's beyond bad for you is essential to recovery, but that doesn't mean he's trying to flaunt it or anything. In the heat of the moment I know I gushed all about it in a small, personal diary I had at the time. It's nothing to be at all proud of, but.. I do understand why he has such a stance on injecting himself with heroin.
  
  Hopefully he'll make the better choice and stop doing it, but that much is up to him.
• pinkkea wrote on 2011-07-14 23:55
  Wow? That description was pretty darn descriptive.
• Kingofrunes wrote on 2011-07-14 23:59
  Well that was a rather indepth description. I could never bring myself to take drugs. I hate being under the influence of anything for that matter.
  
  It's why I'll never:
  
  1) Drink more than one glass of a Margurita. Can't stand the state of Beer or Alcohol in General anyways.
  2) Smoke
  3) Do drugs
• Mama wrote on 2011-07-15 00:24
  dopamine is one hell of a drug. That's what gives you anticipation, reward.. same thing happens after orgasm, same thing happens with love. A brain addicted to a significant other is very samey as one addicted to cocaine, and the bottom denominator in all of them is dopamine.
  
  

  Quote from Phigga;512362:

  Amazing description. Made my skin tingle (since I'm a little hesitant when it comes to needles).
  
  Would never do heroin though.

  
  
  I have a phobia with this kind of thing landing near the borderline, so it made me feel very weird, and if I wasn't lying down already as I was reading I proly woulda got dizzy @_@
• Yoorah wrote on 2011-07-15 00:54
  This is one seriously creepy thread. :|
• Marie wrote on 2011-07-15 05:31
  Is it bad that I think the description is beautiful?
  
  I'm deathly scared of drugs and what it does to people but...the description is honestly like a piece of art to me.
• Yoorah wrote on 2011-07-15 05:48
  Drug use should not be glorified with fancy writing. :/
  They're all a bunch of low-life losers, that is all.
• ThatNerd wrote on 2011-07-15 06:01

  Quote from Yoorah;513028:

  Drug use should not be glorified with fancy writing. :/
  They're all a bunch of low-life losers, that is all.

  
  
  Errrr. No comment