I'll be doing this probably once a week mainly because I don't have anyone to communicate with, but here it goes...
Life is very, very complex. The reason why I find it complex is because it's hard to balance. Since I'm in university I have to balance my academics, social life, daily and weekly life and other things that I probably don't remember right now. Being only serious about my life and giving a damn in the recent 3 years of my life, I've found that balance is the key to having a good life, reason being is that everyone around me is very busy yet they handle it well, and I've asked these people how they can get top mark, have a social life and all these other good cool things, and a common thing is that they have control over their lives and they maintain a order in their lives.
So I've been trying to balance my life in university with academics, a social life but it's really really difficult and I end up staying up till 2am in the morning just to study and I end up not socializing with people. I'd like to have good grades, friends and a nice happy and good life, but because I've just started taking my life seriously, I don't have the same amount of experience as others and because of this I find is extremely to nearly impossible to achieve my goal.
I envy those that can balance their live and I always question myself how yet I can't? It's something that has been in the back of my mind and I always try and answer it but I can't find one. I've been living my life just studying and staying in my room but I don't want my life to be like this at all. I just wish I could just balance my life and I be content with my life.
I don't know how to type this out in a better way so sorry guys >.<