No really though, I'm literally one misstep away from dropping out again, and this time I don't have a backup plan to fall back on. Nation literally eats half my "free time", which is time that shouldn't even exist in the first place. I love you all but now is just not the time. I'm putting my gaming laptop away and switching to my craptop that can't do anything except firefox and run microsoft word or eclipse.
I'd explain all my stress and insecurities but I'd rather not type yet another long rant. The primary reason is school, but theres a lot of other things involving my social life, self identity, personal skills, etc. Its killing me and I need more time to think it through and act on it, and hitting that "New Posts" button and staring at threads isn't going to help me do that whatsoever.
But I don't trust myself to actually stay away from nation. I've tried and the longest I've lasted was like what, 3 weeks, and it was actually easier then because I didn't have the freedom I do now to do whatever I want. So I'm going to ask one of the staff members to ban me until thanksgiving break (at which time I do need to be back temporarily to give the winners of my auction your postal fee estimates). And then I'll request a self ban again until finals are over.
For reasons I'm about to explain in the absences thread, I cannot stay in nation for the remainder of the semester. Please place a temporary ban on me until November 23rd, which is when my Thanksgiving break begins.
Know now that I am in a complete, sane, and unaltered state of mind (if not a little stressed) at the moment. I may suffer withdrawals and ask of you later to undo my ban. Do not listen to me when this happens, for it will not be the same me of today. No matter what I say, you must not listen to me. This ban should be absolute, and must last until November 23rd. When I return for the Thanksgiving weekend, I may try to convince you otherwise that I no longer need to worry about my grades. Do not listen to this either. As soon as the Sunday, November 27th rolls along, you MUST ban me until December 22nd.
I'll have lots of things I want to share with you all, and I'll expect that you all have many things to talk about that I'll be unable to see. I'm still going to be on msn and skype, so say hello whenever you like.
Sorry and thanks.