It's so easy to give up. I mean it. It's so easy to back down or to not show up or to not even try.
It's so hard to do it. So hard to get yourself out of that rut you've been wanting to get yourself out of for a long time, and you KNOW you need to get out of it, but it's so easy to give up on that drive whenever it shows up. It takes effort. Effort can be scary.
The other day, a friend of mine told me that it's about time she gets up and quits her job, that it's about time for her to start her career. She went to school for musical theater, you see, so she wants to be big in shows and Broadway and all that. I think she can do it, her voice is incredible. But she told me something peculiar. She was afraid of being successful. Wow. That stuck to me.
We spend our whole lives running away from the persons we don't want to be become. We put effort into it. We aim towards that education because we don't wanna find mediocre jobs, we aim towards good relationships because we're afraid of being alone. Sometimes, it makes me think, we too get scared when we do obtain those amazing things we've dreamed of all our lives and then we run from those too. Running from what we don't want, running from what we want. What difficult situations we get ourselves in sometimes.
The message I wanted to share with you guys tonight is a simple one.
You gotta keep your eyes on the finish line. No matter what situation you find yourself in.
Hit 24 this past October and life still hits you in the face. You'd think the older you become, the more ready or prepared you can be for these kinds of things. Nope. It's still just as tough. Sometimes, even at 24, you wanna give it all up and just quit. But you can't.
Quicksand, hurricanes, bad friends, bad relationships, floods, bad grades, drugs, you gotta shake 'em all off!! And you gotta remind yourself to keep your eyes fixed on what's important. Some people call it God, some call it happiness, some call it love, some call it laughter, friends, family. Whatever it is, don't lose sight of it!! I wish I could say that it wouldn't get tough, but it will. It'll get hard and devastating and depressing and maybe you may wanna die at some points of your life. But you know what? It's gonna be okay. :)
FUCK YEAH!!
I'm thinking back to those days in high school where I used to be scared of the bullies, to those days in college where I was worried about being fit to impress a crappy boyfriend I used to have, haha. I didn't think I'd get through those days back then, but I'm still here now and that's incredible.
Sometimes you gotta add some perspective to life to humble you. So you can realize how much you've overcome and how strong you are. And then you gotta get back on track.
FINISH LINE, BABY!!
Love you all. Don't give up.