Randomly wanted to hug someone and say "I love you!"?
Please tell me I'm not alone.
I've never felt anything towards anyone aside from perhaps respect or distrust.
No hugs. Other people hug me and it's always awkward because i'm basically a corpse.
Look, I get you think you're always on death-row. But really, people come out of war and live their lives. I've suffered from depression for the longest time, and I've always felt that I'm a worthless shit just hopping by.
The fact you're still around is either because you're lucky, or because you're mentally clinging to the hope that things will get better. Things will always be shit and horrible, that's how the world is. However, like everything, there's a biorhythm of good and bad, and if you're going through a shit load of bad things now, it'll most definitely get better later.
All that aside, emotions, even bad ones are just chemicals shitting around in your body. Supressing them leads to cancer early on, or trippy mental illnesses. It may be hard, however giving up being human is stupid. You can hate being human, or unacknowledged yourself as one, but you can't give it up.. That's biology..
No hugs. Other people hug me and it's always awkward because i'm basically a corpse.
I've never felt anything towards anyone aside from perhaps respect or distrust.