Spat, you really aren't the only one in this situation. I've been there, and other people I've known have been there. I wanted to criticize the fact that you have nothing going for you other than mabi and the internet, but then I thought about it and realized that a lot of us feel that way too anyways.
The big thing is, if you're 21 its about time you took a direction in your life though. You need to find yourself a job and start saving up. Even if its not a well paying full time job, if you save well for a year, you can probably afford to move out, or go to college, or whatever.
How are you still on the internet?
If the internet was cut I'd be devastated. Its 98% of my life right now and all my friends live 2 hour drive away and I don't even have a car. But you know, eventually I'll find something to do as long as I don't sit around moping about how depressing it is. [S]on an online forum you presumably don't have access to anymore.[/S]
Sounds like your parents let you get an xbox, so thats more than I was allowed to get. The last time I bought myself a console I found my dad sitting outside with it in one hand and a hammer in the other.
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i fear those comps will be riddled with key loggers .-. and this city i live in has habit of disabling just about every computer function known so mabination and everything else will be blocked ( they once blocked all the search engines for like 2 years before the people who blocked it got fusterated with not being able to search)
I feel like you're starting to bullshit me here. No doubt your mom probably flipped out and is trying to stop you from going on the internet, but at the same time there's no doubt you're completely blowing your story out of proportion for the sake of sounding as sobbish as possible for everyone across the interboarderwebs who can't prove its not as bad as it seems.
1. If your mom is taking the internet away by removing power cords, which you do not have extras of, and you claim there are no other sources of internet available, you should not be able to get on right now. If your mom decided to remove your internet rights, it is not sensible for her to say "but I'll give you 3 days before I take it away" or some nonsense of the sort. This is also supported by the fact that you managed to describe in great detail how she goes about removing the internet, by "putting the power cords in her purse and sleeping next to it".
2. Somehow you are still getting internet. I can imagine many ways to defeat the parent's way of stopping you from doing so, as my parents were clever enough to try dozens of methods and failed in almost every one of them. The power cord was one of them. I had a hidden spare in this case, which I would use whenever they weren't in the house. However, you said that you don't have access to the internet, implying you don't have a spare, and if your mom is taking it with her in her purse, there's no way you could snatch it even if she was out of the house. My mom only left the house a few hours a week at best for shopping, but nevertheless there was that slight rarity of access, something you seem to be having the opportunity to enjoy quite a lot more than I did.
3. Your library excuse contradicts itself in two points. The library takes such extreme security measures as to disable every function known to man including search engines, but its riddled with keyloggers you say? You can't search? On a library computer? What can you do on it then? Also by your statement it seems you're assuming, not stating facts, so you actually have no idea whether or not mabinogi will run on it or not. Heres the thing:
Either mabinogi runs because the library computers allow foreign executables to run without administrative access which may allow a keylogger to be present or...
Mabinogi will not run which means the computer is safe of keyloggers and then you can get on the internet where while I'm sure they will have blocked some sites like Newgrounds or PORNHERE.COM, theres no reason why you can't use various social media sites, or find new ones that aren't blocked, or easily petition your library to unblock said areas by writing a rather simple argumentative essay about why social media is the path of the future for the spread of information, jobs, and intelligence, something libraries should strive to provide.
IF executables run, you can play mabinogi, and if you suspect a keylogger, you still have the wonderful option of using a certain tool that Microsoft has graciously provided us on every copy of Windows. Its called the On Screen Keyboard and you can find it in Start -> All Programs -> Accessibility -> Ease of Access. This will help you mask your username and password inputs and then you can go back to using the keyboard without a care in the world.
The last problem you might run in to is the limitation of use. My library restricted you to 5 hours of use (and I won't argue with 5 whole free hours of internet usage a day), but some more crowded areas are a bit more strict and I've seen it go as low as 2 hours. But 2 hours is a day is quite fine. Thats the average amount of time people send in PC cafes in Korea. Thats the same amount of time Mabinogi launched with in Korea that you were allowed to play a day before they kicked you off unless you had premium service. It was reasonable.
Libraries aren't the only option either. I could let this post span for the whole page but I think you get the point. There is always a workaround solution and from my perspective, you already have that workaround solution and are just crying about it, or your mom really did give you an internet grace period for god knows why and you're not trying hard enough to find solutions for it.
There are hundreds of things you can do in this world that you don't know about. You might think "I can't do any of those" but even for someone like me who can't stand moving more than 10 inches at a time and hate talking to people face to face has a list of things I could enjoy doing if I'm not on the internet. As long as you're not even trying, you won't discover any of the joys life has to offer.