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Enoshima Smoothie wrote on 2013-05-29 00:14
High school students are getting out soon, college students are as well if not already, and some of them are even heading into their dream jobs or just into a job they enjoy.
Normally I would be fine with where I am in life, but seeing all of my friends and the people around me advance their careers and futures while I sit in my little grey cubicle tapping away at my keyboard I can't help but get extremely depressed and frustrated.
I'm currently on a leave of absence from my college for personal health reasons and plan to transfer to another school sometime next year, but I'm still unsure about it. Everyone else seems to be able to run headfirst into things without worrying, but I just can't...
I have a clear idea for my future but I end up scaring myself out of it and just resign myself to a mediocre office job and tell myself to just accept it.
I want to go to art school, I want to be able to create games or at least create product designs that people will look at and go 'oh that's a cute milk carton', and I was so close a few years ago when I was accepted into RMCAD...but I saw the tuition and even with the help and scholarships I earned I would've still had to take out around 30k a year to pay for it and well, my family has never been a wealthy one so I couldn't justify it. So I turned down my admission and let someone else who would make good use of it have it.
Ugh I don't even know where I was going with this.
TL;DR - I'm afraid of failure and thus have made myself a failure in my failure to get over my fear of failure.
Does anyone else have these feelings? I can usually deal with them, but I feel like I'm collapsing upon myself lately.
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EndlessDreams wrote on 2013-05-29 00:38
I would be scared of that tuition too. Art school at that kind of price is very risky. It isn't like an artist has a stable job and income after graduation unlike some occupation like pharmacists, doctors, and other such professions.
If you can accept that kind of pay for the rest of your life, sure. There are people who do low pay jobs for their whole life, and still can get through life.
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Elleanior wrote on 2013-05-29 00:45
I know that feeling, but I suppose in my case it's a bit different. I have no plans for the future at all, because my mentality prevents me from generally giving a fuck about my future. I can't plan ahead very far, and I can hardly plan ahead because I refuse to act without knowing everything before I even start planning. Which means I'm a cycle of "WELP JUST GONNA SIT HERE AND WAIT FOR LIFE TO PASS ME BY".
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Drizzit wrote on 2013-05-29 00:55
You guys need to read some Emerson or Thoreau. I know that feel too. I just graduated college, and have no idea what I'm gonna do next. I'm afraid of the future, but I also feel I have to embrace it. Nobody can create my future for me, so I have to seize one for myself. The worst thing to do, as Thoreau puts it, would be to come to the end of life and realize I had never lived.
But you don't need art school. Most of the really famous artists never went to art school anyway. If you want to be an artist, just start painting.
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Enoshima Smoothie wrote on 2013-05-29 01:01
Quote from Elleanior;1096972:
I know that feeling, but I suppose in my case it's a bit different. I have no plans for the future at all, because my mentality prevents me from generally giving a fuck about my future. I can't plan ahead very far, and I can hardly plan ahead because I refuse to act without knowing everything before I even start planning. Which means I'm a cycle of "WELP JUST GONNA SIT HERE AND WAIT FOR LIFE TO PASS ME BY".
That's how I was in high school and even then I still have a lot of those traits.;;;
Quote from EndlessDreams;1096967:
I would be scared of that tuition too. Art school at that kind of price is very risky. It isn't like an artist has a stable job and income after graduation unlike some occupation like pharmacists, doctors, and other such professions.
If you can accept that kind of pay for the rest of your life, sure. There are people who do low pay jobs for their whole life, and still can get through life.
I'm actually glad I turned down that school because I saw the student work from the game design department and was not impressed. I do understand that art isn't a stable job by any means, but it's the only thing I truly have a passion for. I also plan to take business classes and foreign language (fine tune my Italian and Japanese) the only issue is finding a school I feel confident in.
The last college I went to allowed people from all majors into the art classes and that only dragged down our entire class because we had like only 5 students in my class who actually was in an art major and the rest were only there for credit and had never drawn before...soooo yeah, I'd like to figure out a way to get over my anxiety of being in debt so I can go to somewhere like Ringling or Otis.
I can't accept this pay for my life though, I'd need more than $8 an hour to live.
[SIZE="1"][S]I have this silly dream of working for CyberConnect2 because they hire foreign workers and I really admire their work and artists[/S][/SIZE]
Quote from Drizzit;1096979:
You guys need to read some Emerson or Thoreau. I know that feel too. I just graduated college, and have no idea what I'm gonna do next. I'm afraid of the future, but I also feel I have to embrace it. Nobody can create my future for me, so I have to seize one for myself. The worst thing to do, as Thoreau puts it, would be to come to the end of life and realize I had never lived.
But you don't need art school. Most of the really famous artists never went to art school anyway. If you want to be an artist, just start painting.
Ah yeah, Thoreau was something I had to read all the time in AP. I should try to find my print outs of his works. Usually I can't get much inspiration out of books, but who knows I might've changed.
Art school for game art and design would give me access to networking and materials I wouldn't be able to get on my own though...
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Mentosftw wrote on 2013-05-29 01:03
Did you have an art thread? I would suggest putting together and adding to a portfolio.
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Enoshima Smoothie wrote on 2013-05-29 01:10
Quote from Mentosftw;1096985:
Did you have an art thread? I would suggest putting together and adding to a portfolio.
Aside from my still life drawings I've destroyed most of my old portfolio because it isn't up to snuff with my current work.
I started an art thread on this site like a year and a half ago and burned it to the ground because it was disgraceful.
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Mentosftw wrote on 2013-05-29 01:12
Well there's not much you can do but start over. You gotta force yourself to do it if you have to.
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Jedo wrote on 2013-05-29 01:14
Life is tough and I am not even close to done with high school and afraid of what it is going to be like. Maybe, you could try to sell some of your art in hopes of earning money for college?
Also I would love to see your art work!
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Drizzit wrote on 2013-05-29 01:16
Quote from Enoshima Smoothie;1096984:
Ah yeah, Thoreau was something I had to read all the time in AP. I should try to find my print outs of his works. Usually I can't get much inspiration out of books, but who knows I might've changed.
Art school for game art and design would give me access to networking and materials I wouldn't be able to get on my own though...
If books aren't your thing, just watch Gurren Lagann a few times. It's pretty much the same message. And, yeah, it's true that a degree would be useful if your goal is video game design. The trick is, if you can't pay for it, look around for ways to get someone else to pay for it.
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Mentosftw wrote on 2013-05-29 01:23
Quote from Jedo;1096990:
Life is tough and I am not even close to done with high school and afraid of what it is going to be like. Maybe, you could try to sell some of your art in hopes of earning money for college?
Also I would love to see your art work!
This is an awful way to make money. An amateur selling their art online is really nothing more than a side project you're working too hard on.
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Enoshima Smoothie wrote on 2013-05-29 01:30
Quote from Jedo;1096990:
Life is tough and I am not even close to done with high school and afraid of what it is going to be like. Maybe, you could try to sell some of your art in hopes of earning money for college?
Also I would love to see your art work!
By the time I would get a loyal following to buy my art I would probably be going to college again lol
I'll fix up my old blog and get some newer works up I guess, wouldn't hurt to try.
Quote from Drizzit;1096992:
If books aren't your thing, just watch Gurren Lagann a few times. It's pretty much the same message. And, yeah, it's true that a degree would be useful if your goal is video game design. The trick is, if you can't pay for it, look around for ways to get someone else to pay for it.
Heh heh games and anime tend to hit home more than books do, not gonna lie. The Tatami Galaxy is what actually inspired me to go back to college and to get my life back on track.
I should be able to qualify for loans, but that's just living off of borrowed money...maybe I could get a sugar daddy. [SIZE="1"][S]not serious[/S][/SIZE]
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Drizzit wrote on 2013-05-29 01:33
Quote from Enoshima Smoothie;1096998:
By the time I would get a loyal following to buy my art I would probably be going to college again lol
I'll fix up my old blog and get some newer works up I guess, wouldn't hurt to try.
Heh heh games and anime tend to hit home more than books do, not gonna lie. The Tatami Galaxy is what actually inspired me to go back to college and to get my life back on track.
I should be able to qualify for loans, but that's just living off of borrowed money...maybe I could get a sugar daddy. [SIZE="1"][S]not serious[/S][/SIZE]
I was thinking more like scholarships.
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Jedo wrote on 2013-05-29 01:34
Quote from Mentosftw;1096997:
This is an awful way to make money. An amateur selling their art online is really nothing more than a side project you're working too hard on.
You don't think I know that? I said in hopes. I know that by doing that it might not work and be extremely hard but I thought it would be worth trying. It is worth the shot! :D
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Mentosftw wrote on 2013-05-29 02:14