Quote from Murasaki;1111657:
Realize that I'm not doing this by choice. My brain simply will not let me believe in any sort of god. After realizing that I was beginning to question my religion, I clung to the idea of God because I wanted something to cling to when it came to things like death and what seems like injustices in the world. Religion can be wonderful. And it can be one of the worst things in the world.
Like I said, I don't care what other people believe.
I just...can't believe in it the same way they can. My brain will not let me. It's like trying to convince myself that I can fly without wings. My brain just won't let me. Lack of proof doesn't mean he's not there, but it doesn't mean he is there either. That argument has some kind of basis, but having something to go on doesn't make it convincing.
You can convince me very easily that slapping me will hurt, because you can simply slap me. I can believe in the wind even though I can't see the wind itself because I see its effect on other things, and feel it against my skin. I don't see the effects of God on things the way other people do. To me, it's just the universe doing it's thing, whatever it is. If the universe was somehow aware of itself, then that's what I would call "God", because everything we do is tied to its laws.
To explain the Santa thing specifically, though...
It's things like Santa...and the tooth fairy, actually..
Let me put it this way: Santa and the Tooth Fairy both have pretty specific roles, and their powers, as fantastical as they can be seen, are still on a much lesser scale than the powers of good. Eventually as I grew up, I came to realize that even these simple little powers didn't actually exist. My brain began to question things. "If all of these adults lied to me about these little things, what else could they get me to believe?" It was also at around that point that I began to realize that not all aspects of religion were positive. Before this, I had been a very proud Catholic. I did my first communion at the age of 8, and I would make sure to do it every single Sunday for ages. Now, being in a church makes me feel ill. I can't stand some of the things that are said and sitting there when I don't believe much of what is being said makes me feel bad, because someone else could benefit from having my seat.
I don't go around trying to convince people that there is no god. I just simply state why I don't believe in one. Sure, that's not the entirety of it, but I just really don't get along with the whole religion or god thing.
Church and religion =/= relationship with God.
The relationship, of course, is personal. Church and religion corrupts stuff with traditions and unnecessary rules. When you put rules to a God, you necessarily limit that God and someone along the way gets excluded from being able to enjoy the blessings from that same God, which is unfair.
Forget names like Catholic, Christian, Pentecostal, etc. Even Muslim, Jew, etc.
God doesn't favor anyone, he loves everyone, haha.
I dunno. I always believed in karma, or the balance of good and evil in the world. And there's so much bad in this world. Some people suffer and suffer and are genuine good folk and it seems like they never receive any good while on this Earth. An existence of a God who judges everyone fairly and compensates everyone fairly makes sense when thinking about how many people suffer at the hands of others daily. I know it ain't Christian to say that all good people go to Heaven, since that's salvation by works, but I don't necessarily believe that all those who do not actively (emphasis on actively) accept Jesus Christ go to hell. They are both just two extremes to me. But that's my opinion.
I think the two greatest commandments that Jesus said, love God and love people, are the two greatest things we should follow. If we don't know God, because of ignorance or misinformation or because of influence from the corruption of God's image by people, I think a fair God makes up for that somehow, somewhere along your life. If anybody gets saved at all, believer or not, Christian or not, etc., I do believe it is only and only by God's mercy and grace. You can't work your way up to God, but it doesn't mean that all the good things you do in this world are unseen by Him.
Love is a great way to think about God.
How do you know love exists if you can't touch it or see it or smell it? You feel it.
It may seem a little crazy to say this, and it is, but I've felt the presence of God in my life before. So that's why I believe it. I could be absolutely wrong, but it would only be such a beautiful mistake which has led me to have so much hope for the world. So where's the loss?
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I feel ya on the Santa Claus example. The reason why I used to haaaaaate religion and Christians before was because of this same let down. If Santa Claus wasn't real, how could God be real, I asked myself? Same example! It was so hard to overcome this disappointment, but reading and reading and researching extra-biblical sources has really led me to love the message of Jesus. No amount of studying or reading though could change my mind.
It happened the day I felt God's presence in my life. I felt loved.